Fascination with Imagination

I imagine too much, one would say. I am way too silly, another would say. I am constantly thinking, every milli-second. Even when I'm sleeping, I am constantly experiencing really deep dreams, the kind where it makes me think again on it. When I'm awake, I'm constantly planning my schedule, or thinking about my work etc. I really don't know how to relax at all. Even when I'm watching a movie, I can't seem to relax. Because whatever happens in the plot, I somehow find a way to relate it back to me, or I reflect on it.

Lee tried teaching me meditation, and I couldn't even go past a minute. I tried concentrating on my breathing but my mind creeps into the thinking pattern again. I used to dance and do a lot of exercises to not think, but I've lost that ability also. Sometimes I think I'm overworking my brain to the point of constant painful headaches. I'm stretching my brain way too much but I don't know how to give it a rest either. I secretly think this is why I am better in the social sciences, and not physical sciences. I can't stand the limitation of physical sciences, there are too many rules to abide by whereas with social sciences, I can write and think freely, at least for the most part.

Anyways, waking up at 6 AM and coming home around 6 PM, then look at my books until 1 AM is a bitch!!! I can't wait to graduate and take a year long break, before doing more schooling again. Me and Lee have somewhat planned to go to HK/China in Oct 2008, so we'll see you guys then. That's if you're still going to be there, Lau!