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Fareeda - You'll like this. Click on Chris Daughtry!

I have a lot on my plate that I'm kind of feeling overwhelmed. Finding a full-time job, doing my weekly readings, meeting up or catching up with old friends, trying to brush up my resume, work, school (I was chosen to be a notetaker for two courses, so I have to attend, not that I was planning on skipping) etc. I suppose the only way to not be overwhelmed is not to take on so many things, but I think each of them are really important. They are all a part of me, and if I one of them is out of balance, I don't end up feeling too great (which is what the past few months were like).

Somehow, even though I've been feeling overwhelmed for the past month, I've actually been getting more and more happy. I suppose it's the feeling of letting go of a lot of petty things that gets me this way. The other day, just a few steps before stepping into my work building, I was actually smiling even though it was snowing fiercely. It's been two years since I've done that. Just smiled to myself, and not because I remembered something sweet or funny. And then the month spiraled into smiling about the littlest things at work or school or people.

Hope this feeling last for awhile because being sad is just too tiring. Have to say that the insights I get from people around me are the best.

Another thing, this thing about full-time employment. I am so scared of not getting a full-time offer come May in either financial institutions, economics, development projects, developmental organizations etc. And I know I speak a few languages but I really don't think that's going to get me anywhere. Few people say that I'm in good shape but it's kinda looking dim, especially how a lot of the entry-level places are looking for people who have/currently taking Masters. And I don't think I want to pursue Masters until few years down the road. My real plan was to have a full-time job, and still acquire a Legal-related Diploma, and learning French, and taking dance classes. So I don't know....(sigh)

Don't think I want to get married now hahaha. I have too many things I want to do before settling down.