Living and Learning

I learned that my heart can take me to the most wonderful places, but another person's heart can't really mean well for me. When I have the heart, another person's deceit can quickly try and take that over. I have become even more protective of myself after everything I have been through. It was a lesson that got harder and harder to learn, but hey, I learned it.

In my case, I have given my best shot at everything in life, I lived for the moment yet I planned what I could control and could not control, I treated everyone the way they treated me, for my whole life. It was always a motto that I abided by early on. I do regret on some bad choices though but I'll take note never to make those mistakes ever again. You reap what you sow. I just can't wait for karma haha.

I have an unbelievably strong spirit that is guiding me throughout all this. That strong spirit took years of making and believing.

On a completely different note, the snow fall today was really romantic. I just wanted to stand there and let it all fall on me. I really do enjoy rain or snow on days like this. I suppose it makes me feel like I too, can shed away my burdens and just let myself soar. Ha, the weirdest thing was seeing my ex who happened to be on the same bus. Thank goodness he sat in the back and I sat in the front. Saw an old friend too though on the same bus. (Yes, I know, me and my bus adventures haha)

Shopping

In about two hours yesterday, I spent nearly $300 on 5 pants, and 3 boots, among other small accessories. Next will be glasses, contacts, shirts, digital camera and party clothes.

Considering the pants are way too long for me, I asked my parents to help me amend them. Yes, I don't know how to sew. In return for my parents' help, they lectured me on how I am not a proper girl just because I don't know how to sew nicely, or I'm not a traditional girl blah blah.

Like I told my parents before, I absolutely am not a normal girl, I don't think nor do I act like one. Fitting myself into the roles of cutesy-dumbass, or mute-submissive just isn't me. I am really strong-headed, I know what I want and what I don't want, when I see something unacceptable, I make sure I don't become like that etc. Yes, I don't know how to sew but why do most parents want their daughters to be so submissive, or the words my parents and many Chinese parents use, "Able to fit in the kitchen, able to fit in the living room".

And apparently me being very hyper and not being too upset is kind of disturbing some friends who have known me for way too long, and seen me overcome many other problems. Ha, I suppose I have a stronger spirit than I thought. Anyways, letting go makes me feel better because I feel like I'm not stopping anyone, especially myself, from many things in life. I am, however, going to miss the kids so much.

My birthday's coming up, and I'm thinking how I want to spend it. Probably want to go to a jam, like Rocellie suggested. I am going to have a glorious feat on my birthday, even though it's really just two weeks away haha. And again, my birthday falls on a weekday, what else is new? (Guess I'll be seeing you on my birthday, Fareeda, since I'm working that day haha)

Wasting paper

I was trying to print something on 1 of the color printer that some of us share at the office, and I had to wait for about 20 minutes because someone ignorant decided to print out 236 pages of some company's financial statements. While this is somewhat normal, the part of it not was that someone didn't even try to see if the printer had any paper, before printing the 236 pages again, just because he/she thought the printer was jammed. I mean, seriously just read what it says on the printer screen. If the printer says LOAD PAPER, go get paper and load it into the printer. Pressing the PRINT button on your screen multiple times will not get you your papers until you load paper. The person basically wasted about 300 pages with some pages that were already printed. I just don't understand how people can be so damn lazy as to get paper to feed it onto the printer, and then pick up their handouts.

So being ruthless as I am sometimes, I canceled the person's print job three times since they were printing the same thing over and over again. Fed the color printer with paper and got my own printouts.

I am pretty civilized in the office and I usually don't mind feeding the printers with paper if I'm on the way, but sometimes I just don't understand how people can be so damn stupid. I never get involved in office politics unless people are holding up the printer with the same printouts multiple times, and wasting paper. That's just about the only thing that I vent about. Sometimes I use the back side of any papers that are left over, provided they don't carry any confidential data.

Bottom line, just don't waste paper. It really is a waste. I think there should be some sort of by-law or even policies about the number of papers you can buy in a given time.

Coming through the Internet

Why do people like to hide their emotions or their passions so much? Isn't it stifling to just close or hide that part of you off? People are not passionate about anything sometimes. When I meet or know people like that, it's so boring because nothing moves them, and essentially, the conversation soon ends on a boring note. But then you start talking to them via the MSN Messenger, and suddenly so many facades come out and then you develop this bond, over the INTERNET!! Which is pretty lousy, no offense! So it's very safe to say that they are socially inept, and should really start to learn how to socialize with people in person.

I mean there are so few people that I know of who are passionate about something and can carry good conversation (that actually has substance), and they are enticing. I don't know about everything but when you hear or see passionate people talking, there's so much of this glow that I can't get enough of haha.

All I'm saying is, being passionate about something is the way to go, boys and girls.

Another near-perfect weekend

Friday - watched Titanic with Lee (the limited edition). Sob story, the usual haha. Was quite good. The history is really intriguing. Come to think of it, Kate Winslet is a really good actress.

Saturday - dinner with Andy and Sarah at Kama Restaurant which is on King and Simcoe. Classical Indian Cuisine. Was such a good dinner because it was my favorite style of food. Think I'll be going there to order my lunches from now on since it's so close to work :) [Gene and Eric, I must take you two there one day!] - Pictures are up on Imagestation.

Sunday - was supposed to go shopping with Gene but too tired, and my headache again. So, I studied and watched "Pursuit of Happy-ness"

Mmm, still thinking of the Indian feast I had yesterday.